Headlights show us a few feet ahead on the road — not 100 miles, and we still embark on cross-country journeys. For that we exercise our trust. In this journey of my business, I just keep showing up with my intention and wait for the next amazing thing to happen. Sometimes I worry that I won’t succeed or that I’m not enough; then I lose trust and try to control, to manage.
I’m learning every day that it is more effective to stay in the energy of ‘How can I serve?’ and let the answers come in their myriad and mysterious forms.
Writing my book, A Sweet Life Without Sugar, I had no idea how, on a meager budget, I would get the book photographed, edited, designed or published. I only knew that I wanted to share my commitment to helping people enjoy desserts without gluten or sugar. I had just moved back to California, had no job, little savings, and considerable fear that I might eventually have to live in my car — by the way, a 1988 Volvo that has served me for 17 years!
I became a personal chef and gardener for a friend in exchange for renting a small cottage behind her house. One day, while working in the front yard, a neighbor came over to introduce herself. “What do you do?” she asked. “I’m writing a cookbook.” Seeing the shock on her face, I asked her what she did. “I design cookbooks!” That was the beginning of a working relationship and a dear friendship.
When it was time to photograph my desserts, my friend Elaine just happened to know a professional food photographer, who, upon hearing about my project, decided to gift me several photo shoots.
I was almost ready to send the manuscript to the printer when I was introduced to another angel. Debbie is a nurse and health practitioner herself, who saw the importance of empowering people to get off sugar without feeling deprived. She helped me make the book more readable and more credible.
Later, when her friend was able to use my recipes to overcome her own addiction to sugar, I was gifted with a MD who was willing to endorse and promote me.
Two years later, after teaching and speaking about the book, my son's company turned it into an app for ipads. Asa and Kat have continued to help me get the word out.
I am in awe at all the people who have showed up to take me to the next level in getting my message out. I just keep asking, “How can I?” and grace answers. I live in the possibility instead of being boxed in by the definition. It’s truly a game of discovery and gratitude.